Lessons

God is faithful to me even when I am not faithful and that is what separates Him from me or Men.

God is faithful to His word even when I am not and infact I step out of His dictates for me.

God’s timing is nothing like mine, seeing as I am given over to being impatient and what have you BUT when He does come through, the timing is perfect and the results spectacular.

Help me Lord that I would not doubt you, try you or forget your marvelous works that you have achieved on my behalf.

for sister with love

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ENJOY

Tx

I have learnt this week that the truth will always set you free. That when you trust God all glory will always rise unto Him. That when I trust myself, what I am doing never amounts to much until I trust Him.

2.5

Its my birthday today… I am finally 25, wuhoooooooo!

Brad and Angelina split up! Its been in the news for a long time now but it has finally been confirmed. I was so hurt when he split up with Jeniffer Aniston, I know they aren’t my family but when a marriage ends, it’s always so sad. And then, they have six kids together , both biological and adopted and you just think of the impact on them too. On the one hand, you don’t want to prescribe that the two unhappy people stay together and raise these kids, is it always so clear cut that when it’s not working,  just up and go? Very tough that solution, I guess at the end of it you just have to think things through TOTALLY before you say ‘ I do’ because even then, there is no guarantee. But I think, if you are gonna divorce or split up, rather do it early on in the relationship than after ten, fifteen or more years….My two cents.

Sometimes, when you have the incomplete facts about something, its very easy to make certain sweeping assumptions and to justify those. Case in point, interracial relationships. I often wonder so many things: why do you rarely find two people (of different race) of the same age and interests? Both of whom are resident in that country and not the case that one of them is on holiday? But then again, I am not the Lord of who falls in love with who and why and so I shall walk away from this one pretty fast. But I have learnt, I dont always know all the facts, so I won’t begin to make presumptious comments about the two individuals.

Happy birthday to me, tra la la la…..

aha!

at BSF this week, we are learning about the blind man in John 9 and part of it is contrasted with the story of Job who lost everything and was nevertheless presented before God as blameless, upright and loving God. Part of it too was about the Pharisees’ spiritual blindness because they thought that by keeping the Law, they would actually see God even when He was standing right in front of them. How also although the man who was eventually healed was blind, he was not guilty. Those who were guilty were the Pharisees who while blind, thought themselves seeing (Jn.9:41) that just stopped me in my tracks! How often do i think know only to later find out that in fact I didn’t and what I needed to do was trust in Him and just let Him be God, the alpha and the omega….like now? I surrender and just quietly walk away from it all!

Writing this paper it seems will require more discipline than I had initially thought and its gonna take my all but its gotta get done:-)

first day back

As I often do, I got up Friday morning and logged onto Facebook and everyones status update was a colour, the first one, the second and the third and soon i was asking what the next person asked, whats with all the colour today? Apparently it was a move to support breast cancer awareness. While the action was noble and it truly does affect all of us and it really is for a good cause, i just wondered too, how does this actually help? Like seriously,seriously? Was a portion of the income given over to charity or how did it all come about? I admit I didnt get the email that forced this action so maybe this is very preemptive but it just got me wondering, and then what?

Reading a book called Getting married by Candice Watters, and it was a different book which is why i picked it up to begin with, it talks of how we as women can help marriage become a reality. Various things have stuck with me. In the book she talks of how we(women) need to talk about marriage as much as we talk about anything else. How we need to be strategic in terms of nurturing the guys to actually make the move and ask us out instead of  just waiting so that we can respond!  She also talks of how “marriage is not a thing that’s out looking for people to join. Its a state to be pursued and ideally,by the man”. I liked that, a lot. Im almost done but its been a refreshing read for me…

Its a new year and im very excited. Also reading this now and its nice.

positive connotation

MARCEL PROUST was a French writer who believed that people must know and understand themselves before they could know or understand others. He developed a list of subjective questions that he felt would help reveal to people their true selves and the inner personalities of those around them.

Respond to the questions in any manner you choose, briefly or at length. The point is to be honest with yourself. Some questions may require a few minutes of reflection, but many are best answered by recording the first thought that enters your head.

 

WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST FEAR? Being hooked on drugs, getting raped

WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT STATE OF MIND? Very, very happy

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE OCCUPATION? (WAY OF SPENDING TIME) Reading, surfing the net, chatting

WHAT HISTORICAL FIGURE DO YOU MOST IDENTIFY WITH? Can’t think of any specific one but any woman who has dared to go where few had before

WHICH LIVING PERSON DO YOU MOST ADMIRE? Martha Karua, Madeline Albright

WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE FICTIONAL HERO? Don’t know any…

WHO ARE YOUR REAL-LIFE HEROES? Selfless people who act above and beyond their ability

WHAT IS YOUR MOST TREASURED POSSESSION? My journals, my bags, my letters and CDs

WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU HAPPIEST? Finishing my undergrad and passing my honours degree, landing my new job

WHAT IS YOUR MOST OBVIOUS CHARACTERISTIC? Passion, laughter, outspokenness

WHAT IS THE TRAIT YOU MOST DEPLORE (HATE) IN YOURSELF? Loyalty even in the face of abuse from those dear and near

WHAT IS THE TRAIT YOU MOST DEPLORE IN OTHERS? Dishonesty, two-facedness, bossiness

WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST EXTRAVAGANCE?  Books, music

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE JOURNEY? Anywhere I can go by train

WHAT DO YOU MOST DISLIKE ABOUT YOUR APPEARANCE? My front teeth, my fingers in pictures

WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER THE MOST OVER-RATED VIRTUE? Not saying what you think and having to be tactful

ON WHAT OCCASION DO YOU LIE? To save face, to spare the feelings of those I love

WHICH WORDS OR PHRASES DO YOU MOST OVER-USE? Haiya! Oh gosh! Kwani!

IF YOU COULD CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOURSELF, WHAT WOULD IT BE? I would not care so much about what others think of me

WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER YOUR GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT? Pursuing my education to this level and maintaining so many of my friends over the years

WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE? In a big house, where there is no winter

WHAT IS THE QUALITY YOU MOST ADMIRE IN A MAN? Living within one’s means, the ability to provide for the family, taking care of his kids

WHAT IS THE QUALITY YOU MOST ADMIRE IN A WOMAN? Resilience, being a home maker, the love that their children always have for them

WHAT IS IT YOU MOST DISLIKE? Dishonesty

WHAT DO YOU VALUE MOST IN YOUR FRIENDS? Loyalty, similar goals in life, being playful

HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE? In my sleep or without any pain

IF YOU WERE TO DIE AND COME BACK AS A PERSON OR AN ANIMAL, WHAT DO YOU THINK IT WOULD BE? A cat because they are very clean

IF YOU COULD CHOOSE AN OBJECT TO COME BACK AS, WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE? An African husband, tihiiii

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO (WORDS YOU LIVE BY OR THAT MEAN A LOT TO YOU)? Col. 3:23 whatever you do, work at it as though working for the Lord

WHO HAS BEEN THE GREATEST INFLUENCE ON YOU? My family, Mrs. Ng’ang’a my university lecturer

 

 

a new decade

I officially turn 25 in a couple of weeks and I cant wait. I declared to myself last year that the years 24 to 27 will be my ultimate best years for living and that I was gonna enjoy every single one of them and so far, so good. My sister and her nephew will be moving to town so it will be more of us over the next few years and thats so lovely.

As the title goes, its a new decade of the new Millenium, I am one person who takes advantage of the new year to make goals and if you would, resolutions and I had thought of a couple but I shall post about that later….Happy New year world:-)

2010 here we come

At home with the family for Christmas and I’m very happy to chill with all of them and to take a much-needed break from my Masters dissertation and the course I have to retake next semester.

Went to a friends traditional wedding proceedings this last Saturday and it was so bittersweet. In about five or so months, she will be saying ‘ I do’ and she is going to be the first one from the inner circle to take the plunge and it will be interesting to see how that is going to turn out and the kinds of changes that it will bring up in our circle. But I won’t be here to watch and partake in it and thats sad but hey, change is part of life and I have to learn to take it in my stride. I wonder who is next, tihiiiii Its been odd to come back home and reconnect with a couple of my friends and see that with others there isn’t any more we can talk about. I previously agonized about these kinds of changes but I guess in getting older, I have gotten wiser and it has hit me that there is nothing wrong in realizing that just because we were friends once, does not mean we have to continue ad infinitum.

I won’t be able to blog anymore in the next week before the coming year and so this is it. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all.  I wonder what the new year will bring in my personal and professional life, also to this blog. I remember finding out that I am leaving for Jo’burg to study and starting  this blog in order to keep up with my pals and those I had left at home. Maybe it will be more about the personal things I like and all the interests I have and all the other things I would like to do…I would like it to reflect the personal growth and the direction that my life is taking going forward. I was also thinking that I should continue with those blogging groups I had joined and meet people and get feedback and all that.  I have been reading these blogs (the 20something newly weds) and they keep asking for feedback and what have you and it feels so cute. So, me? What should I write about?

God bless and prosper all that read this:-)

me

im obsessed with reading this sign on the steps to class everyday as i go up the stairs to second floor

i dont like these birds that come to the tables at lunch, they smell and im obsessed that their feathers have diseases of sort

when cooking following a recipe, i like to lay out all the ingredients on the table BEFORE i cook…it feels like im on telly

i cant shop without a shopping list, but then again i like to list many things down, i feel really free that way

i like to iron my towel on a cool iron, it feels so nice against my skin

cost of doing business

my new evil and very time consuming compulsion is the need to read blogs from newly weds…..i am damned is what!

il read this later when i have time

still wanting to do my pottery classes but the servers and thing are to die for

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a sad truth, we keep learning lessons in life, some are easy and fun but the greater majority are tough and gut wrenching and at times, threaten our very core and indeed we feel like we would die…

its so cold, might as well snow

just looking through some of the links and here are a couple:

Who does this? a blog of a kids fashion sense? seriously?

who wears these clothes? on the real tip

a novel idea….

for the foodies out there-

I like this guy a lot

 

21 for life

It seems at 21 I knew it all or I came very close to knowing a lot of it. Was skimming through some of the stuff I wrote from back then and other than these quotes below that meant something to me then and now, If im honest, I really learnt a lot from my younger self….tihiii. ENJOY

Love does not dominate, it cultivates – Goethe

 Many waters cannot quench love: many rivers cannot wash it away.

 If you are far from the one you love, you love the one who is near.

 The one who loves least controls the relationship.

 I’d rather be with God in the dark than alone in the light – Corrie Ten Boom

We have to change our patterns of reacting to experiences for our problems do not lie in what we experience, but in the attitude we have towards it – Akong Rimpoche

 The pain of waiting is nothing compared to that of regret.

It is impossible for us to break laws; we only break ourselves upon them – Cecil B. De Mille

 God will not do by miracle what I am to do by obedience.

 The greatness of a man’s power is in the measure of his surrender – William Booth

Vision: the ability to turn a picture of the future into passion                                                                                                          

You can’t trust your affections, but you can rely on love and character

 It is possible to have a fulfilled life even if there are many unfulfilled desires - Dietrich Bonhoeffer                                                                              

 Experience is not what happens to you. It is what you do with what happens to you -        Aldous Huxley                                                                

 Your greatest need is to be delivered from the wrath of God- and that has already been accomplished for you through the death and resurrection of Christ. So why doubt that God will provide a much, much lesser need?   C. J. Mahaney 

Decision, we make them. Then they turn around and make us. And sometimes they break us.

 God doesn’t play dice -   Albert Einstein                                                         

 We don’t see things as they are; we see them as we are – Anais Nin

 If you don’t care to be crucified emotionally in a dating relationship, leave the saving and changing of others to the Lord – Josh Harris

the boy who knew too much

I was reading Ps.83:14-15 and i was just wondering is there a place for such prayers in this day and age? Like when can i set out to pray as follows

Like the fire that burns down the forest,

or the flames that consume the mountainsides,

chase them with your gale winds,

and terrify  them with your windstorm.

If im pissed off at a relative? a boss? bad service? unfortunate leadership? WHEN?

Superfreakonomics is out! Who wants to buy it for me,eh? Do i see hands…?

 i am as above…..

two times lucky

today i said all that i have been thinking silently about for almost a week now. today i let you know what i feel, but what, if anything, did it achieve?

next time

losing patience

not for too long

losing myself

almost three weeks now

i jacked this from her who i learnt from her and i put it here coz thats what i often feel about you AND the other you.

b r j

I was angry with my friend: I told my wrath, my wrath did end. I was angry with my foe: I told it not, my wrath did grow.
William Blake

Resentment is weak and lowers your self-esteem.
Barbara Sher

Resentment or grudges do no harm to the person against whom you hold these feelings but every day and every night of your life, they are eating at you.
Norman Vincent Peale

You gave him an opportunity of showing greatness of character and he did not seize it. He will never forgive you for that.
Friedrich Nietzsche

good news day

his boss

I really wish I could take a year off next year and do all these quaint things you know!

• Teach English in a foreign country, Spain although I hear they are racist
• Work as a bar tender in London or New York, I wonder if this is glamourous
• Work in a winery in France
• Trek through parts of Europe
• Go to Malindi or Jinja this year for sure
• Do the drive between Joburg and Cape Town with friends

So my sister and I took to the road a couple of weeks back and it has been quite an experience. I AM SO DETERMINED to do it right this time round, it has been nerve wracking too but It will be done…..