21 for life

It seems at 21 I knew it all or I came very close to knowing a lot of it. Was skimming through some of the stuff I wrote from back then and other than these quotes below that meant something to me then and now, If im honest, I really learnt a lot from my younger self….tihiii. ENJOY

Love does not dominate, it cultivates.                         Goethe

 Many waters cannot quench love: many rivers cannot wash it away.

 If you are far from the one you love, you love the one who is near.

 The one who loves least controls the relationship.

 I’d rather be with God in the dark than alone in the light.

                                                                                                                 Corrie Ten Boom

 We have to change our patterns of reacting to experiences for our problems do not lie in what we experience, but in the attitude we have towards it.                                                                                                            Akong Rimpoche

 The pain of waiting is nothing compared to that of regret.

It is impossible for us to break laws; we only break ourselves upon them.

                                                                                                               Cecil B. De Mille

 God will not do by miracle what I am to do by obedience.

 The greatness of a man’s power is in the measure of his surrender.

                                                                                                                      William Booth

 Vision: the ability to turn a picture of the future into passion

 You can’t trust your affections, but you can rely on love and character

 It is possible to have a fulfilled life even if there are many unfulfilled desires.                                                                                                              Dietrich Bonhoeffer

 Experience is not what happens to you. It is what you do with what happens to you.                                                                                                      Aldous Huxley

 Your greatest need is to be delivered from the wrath of God- and that has already been accomplished for you through the death and resurrection of Christ. So why doubt that God will provide a much, much lesser need?

                                                                                                                     C. J. Mahaney

 Decision, we make them. Then they turn around and make us. And sometimes they break us.

 God doesn’t play dice.                                                             Albert Einstein

 We don’t see things as they are; we see them as we are.         Anais Nin

 If you don’t care to be crucified emotionally in a dating relationship, leave the saving and changing of others to the Lord.                      Josh Harris

 

 

 

 

the boy who knew too much

I was reading Ps.83:14-15 and i was just wondering is there a place for such prayers in this day and age? Like when can i set out to pray as follows

Like the fire that burns down the forest,

or the flames that consume the mountainsides,

chase them with your gale winds,

and terrify  them with your windstorm.

If im pissed off at a relative? a boss? bad service? unfortunate leadership? WHEN?

Superfreakonomics is out! Who wants to buy it for me,eh? Do i see hands…?

 i am as above…..

two times lucky

today i said all that i have been thinking silently about for almost a week now. today i let you know what i feel, but what, if anything, did it achieve?

next time

losing patience

not for too long

losing myself

almost three weeks now

i jacked this from her who i learnt from her and i put it here coz thats what i often feel about you AND the other you.

b r j

I was angry with my friend: I told my wrath, my wrath did end. I was angry with my foe: I told it not, my wrath did grow.
William Blake

Resentment is weak and lowers your self-esteem.
Barbara Sher

Resentment or grudges do no harm to the person against whom you hold these feelings but every day and every night of your life, they are eating at you.
Norman Vincent Peale

You gave him an opportunity of showing greatness of character and he did not seize it. He will never forgive you for that.
Friedrich Nietzsche

good news day

his boss

I really wish I could take a year off next year and do all these quaint things you know!

• Teach English in a foreign country, Spain although I hear they are racist
• Work as a bar tender in London or New York, I wonder if this is glamourous
• Work in a winery in France
• Trek through parts of Europe
• Go to Malindi or Jinja this year for sure
• Do the drive between Joburg and Cape Town with friends

So my sister and I took to the road a couple of weeks back and it has been quite an experience. I AM SO DETERMINED to do it right this time round, it has been nerve wracking too but It will be done…..

nick,nacks

BBA is such a yawn…I wonder why I looked forward to it! Can’t wait for it to start

Reading this now

Sad about Caster… and how its all being publicized and how petty the Australians are being about it all

Listened to a sad show yesterday about whether to read your childs diary or not?

Met a lady today morning who I think was making racist comments about the bus driver and I just wondered….then the bus came! YEY

murder on the blogosphere

I dont want to name-and-shame the blog I have been reading the  last couple of weeks BUT…its about this 25 year old chick who has been married for the past year and how she and her pals are all getting married! so its hubby this, shower the other, friend this married this day and the other one married the other one…yuck,yuck,yuck..which made me wonder! has she no single friends who arent married and what must they feel like? (il just choke myself now/ il just jump off the ledge/ il puke on the marital bliss overdose)…eek! but what do my pals and i all have in common that makes those around us just want to choke themselves or us,whichever is painless??

BIG BROTHER STARTS ON SUNDAY…hallo no life,tra la la la:-D

Two in one day? Mhhhh….

Native-ity

Lady in red

I’ve never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight
I’ve never seen you shine so bright
I’ve never seen so many men ask you if you wanted to dance
They’re looking for a little romance, given half a chance
I have never seen that dress you’re wearing
Or the highlights in your head that catch your eyes I have been blind
The lady in red is dancing with me cheek to cheek
There’s nobody here, it’s just you and me, It’s where I wanna be
But I hardly know this beauty by my side
I’ll never for get, the way you look tonight

I’ve never seen you looking so gorgeous as you did tonight
I’ve never seen you shine so bright you were amazing
I’ve never seen so many people want to be there by your side
And when you turned to me and smiled, It took my breath away
I have never had such a feeling
Such a feeling of complete and utter love, as I do tonight

The way you look tonight
I never will forget, the way you look tonight
The lady in red
The lady in red
The lady in red
My lady in red (I love you.)

YOU Know how we do!

a couple of pics

A friend of mine came to see me about two months back and these are some of the pics I have from then that don’t have people in them:-)

BOOORED but oh no!

I have had one of those weeks where the days seem to run faster than the 24 hours allocated to do them in…I have been getting to bed with just enough energy to just turn out the light and drop dead.

Excited about: my friend coming over for the next week and all the mischief we shall get up to, getting on well, coming clean with a friend, this  and this too! All the tools I need to feed my blogger-reading addiction.

Not excited about: marking 75 scripts THIS weekend (before the mentioned friends visit), my honesty that led to a conflict, the saids friends departure and the job hunting process

I guess, its a slow Friday and I just wanted to write something:-)

Oh no but i got something after that that i had wanted to write about all week…we went to this church on Sunday, all glitz and big screens and loud guitars and moving Worship and it confirmed to me once again why I’m such an Anglican…If I settle here I’m looking for a church like the one at home, very traditional but with myriad opportunities for me to serve at…speaking of which I was hearing about the thing that I want to be involved in: I want to work with little girls or guys, about 11 to 13 and maybe get involved with them for a couple of years and just help them navigate through live, love and faith and that thing…thats of course before my friends and I all start having babies and then we can do that for them

happy 62nd

I was watching some show last night on BBC Knowledge, Saira Khan the Apprentice runner up chick was taking us guys round Pakistan her home country though she was born in the UK. Clearly she is a muslim woman who has some rights as she grew up in a foreign country and what. The whole thing therefore had a gender slant and two really touching things just jumped out at me. There was this assylum ( I don’t like the mental image this word conjures in my mind…) that housed women in varying degrees of mental breakdown and at first it begins with a few of them and then towards the end, there are like 2010 of them and I just wondered, is this peculiar to Pakistan or all over the world are there so many women breaking down? Is it the fact that they are women, the war waging around, or the religion? Then there were a couple of guys who dress up as women and they say how they feel like women deep down, ok they are so pretty but yaani, if they sleep with men are they straight or gay or whats the deal? yaani they were pretty chicks

blue

one bad day…a little set back and then a burst of fun and enjoyment and then back to square one and the vicious cycle continues as such… I found out that a friend of mine is going back home this past weekend and for some reason I will really miss her though I’m sure we shall continue to talk just as often…I pray!

scouts honour

I do hearby promise that if I get married I will never call my husband hubby! How gross it is

sharing is caring

These are a few things that have caught my fancy in the last couple of months!

How a little girl got caught up in a cultic movemement

I like the idea of sustainable trade

Nice idea, but really?

My sister gave me this book and its been a nice read

I wanna read this one

I wanna read this two

I wanna read this three or atleast watch it!

Goodness knows why im hooked on this?

So enjoy and have a lovely weekend ahead :=)

little pill on the hilltop

two things I do that I know I ought to stop: One, is looking at disgusting things over and over and having to commit it to my mind, the gross-ER it is, the greater the fixation! Two is feeling sad and making sure I play music that makes me feel worse about it or replaying things past that made me feel worse! And then look at what I stumbles upon! not on but I do…..so what fixation have you got?

BZZZ!

My sister told me about this really shocking study that’s got everyone talking here in South Africa. What does this mean? Really?  The study was conducted in regions that traditionally have these elaborate practices about coming of age and it just begs the question: HOW manly do you feel after you rape a woman? Like on a scale of one to ten, what are the marginal benefits and here these comments are dripping with sarcasm!

XYZ

STANDING TOGETHER by Amelia
 

There’s an oak tree that stands in our front yard
When we moved here years ago, it stood there just as grand
unmoved by the storms that blew last year
unnerved by the strong winds that for months don’t clear
it just stands there it’s roots planted firm to the ground
and for it’s stubbornness and stability it’s gotten renown

That’s how I want to love you every single day
steadily and steadfast, through the storms, I want to stay
I want to love you this year and the next, even when it pains
even when loving you hurts and my every energy it drains
I want to stay beside you through the storms and winds of life
like the oak I want to stay put even when the pain cuts like a knife

when our dreams are crumbling all around us like a house of cards
I want to stay with you and travel together through all the painful yards
me and you against the world taking it all on together
we can conquer it all you and I, we can make it through whatever
unmoved and uncompromised ,holding on to each other don’t you see,
just as long as we stand unshaken like the steady oak tree

 

I cant remember which blogger I picked this up from but it was beautiful and I’m in no ways trying to pass it off as my own. I simply loved it is what

good times,neh?

Its 365 days today to the world cup and at exactly 1600hours local time, we are one year away from it all. EXCITEMENT! and the Confed Cup begins this weekend as well….ayoba! Graduation is in two weeks or slightly under and my mom and sis are coming over…..GRAND!