good news day

little pill on the hilltop

two things I do that I know I ought to stop: One, is looking at disgusting things over and over and having to commit it to my mind, the gross-ER it is, the greater the fixation! Two is feeling sad and making sure I play music that makes me feel worse about it or replaying [...]

BZZZ!

My sister told me about this really shocking study that’s got everyone talking here in South Africa. What does this mean? Really?  The study was conducted in regions that traditionally have these elaborate practices about coming of age and it just begs the question: HOW manly do you feel after you rape a woman? Like [...]

i now know

the loneliest place ever to be is at a low point in your life and to  to know that where you are God aint with you as you embark on that path.
that to lose a friend is the worst, to lose a friend over something trivial is the worst feeling ever.
to have balancing tears and try [...]

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In Kiswahili we speak of life being like a flower, here today gone today
YOU were that flower, here with us then gone tomorrow
Our flower, we are sad that you were plucked away but we know where you are and it somehow can console us
Goodbye our flower and God be with you, soldier!

grrrrrrrr

I have been getting the urge to go and work in a small town somewhere or go abroad and just be on my own. I love my family but being the youngest has meant that certain lessons I’ve been spared and while I dont want to go large, but I think I want to get [...]

last year

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before? left home

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Dont really do resolutions, i have yearly plans that contribute to a multi-year plan

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? My high school classmate
4. Did [...]

100th Post

i used to be scared of  hearing it
i’m the first to walk away
              and the last to ever say it
You had me in your grip
when you showed up i’d weep
       NO more
       NOT now
      NOT ever
It doesnt have to be like this anymore
Now, it signals growth and a new beginning
I refuse to hang onto the [...]

in my head

what am I doing different?
Why does it hurt so bad?
Am I doing the right thing?
Is it worth it?
Is it catching or is it in the water?
Should I ask?
Will he come through?
When does it ever end?
How good am I really?
Why such a turnaround?
What could I have done differently?
These are just a couple of the random thought [...]

papas day

I think as we grow up we tend to wear our secrets on our sleeves as our badges of honour and we tend to enjoy it too.

all in a post

Ok i hear that this chick is fifteen years old and she is covered in the June edition of this magazine and she is topless- at all of fifteen what was i doing? i definitely wasnt posing nude for nobody and would not have been paid enough to anyways and even then, if my mother [...]

declarations

I had the opportunity to ask myself a few hard questions this day- why are all the friendships I made as an adult and quite outside of school so full of mountains,valleys and all else in between? I know im not too good with affirmation and all that but i just think im too tired of [...]

beautiful disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain’t right
He’s magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to [...]

oooh boy

I am watching East and Southern Pop Idols and wondering to myself, first of all- when were the auditions held? was I in town while they were being held or had i already gone- I think I have watched all the other idols from pretty much the rest of the world and thus far- NO [...]

knick knack

Memory is a curious little device isn’t it? According to Wikipedia, it is defined as an organism’s ability to store,retain and subsequntly retrieve information. This is the psychological definition of it and at its root we can see is information. How far back can our memory take us- whats the earliest thing you can easily remember [...]

masks

In my first semester at Daystar, I read this book about masks and why people are afraid to show each other who they really are- the exact name escapes my memory for the moment but yeah, it was a real eye opener. I think that in life we all need some kinds of masks to protect [...]